Saturday, 27 October 2007
The key is TRUST

Todae i woke up, feeling aching all over cos ytd i went gym with Sharon n Luke after 4 months never exercise AT ALL. Meeting Zhiwei, Hsiaoen, Huiying at Mac then go M&S. at first i decided not to go CLM becos i really wanna met my sheep after such a long time i couldnt meet her. but it seemed that she couldnt make it on time for shepherding so i decided to go CLM with Zhiwei.

during CLM, God spoke to me through the verse Genesis : 32:25-26:'... i will not let you go unless you bless me'. and God spoke to me through dat verse again during svc. At the beginning of the svc, i was not emotionally rite maybe becos all my sheeps n others cg members couldnt make it for svc . Then God rebuked me and challenged me to put His kingdom first in wadever decisions i m gonna make in the future. I repented ...

Todae God also taught me a lesson about TRUST. i really think i need to grow in this area, in trusting my sheeps n people around me. Maybe becos i was a very bad sheep, i did all the bad things a sheep can do to a shepherd so I kind of think others will also do the same thing as me. But i was wrong ... Maybe the reason why the relationship with me n my sheeps didnt grow though i've tried so hard is the lack of TRUST. i didnt trust my sheeps enuf ... i will change.

the reason why God rebuked me is becos of my slack attitude. Alevel cant be an excuse. Going back with family cant be an excuse. n worst, being a Vietnamese cant be an excuse. Nothing can be an excuse for me to slack in growing my sheeps n my cg. i know i've been slack with these rubbish reasons n at first i thought it was fine anyway since all the reasons seemed quite logic. But ... I've sinned.

'teach me how to love like u've loved me
teach me how to trust like u've trusted me'

posted by Joy